Hardest Goodbye

Lonely girl sitting alone
One day, you will understand,
Would realize why I did what I did,
Sometimes we meet the right people at the wrong times in our life;
Perfect ones that we only later realize,
If I get to choose, I would never want to lose you,
My heart breaks, when I look at you,
No matter how much I care or
how much I want to keep you safe,
I keep losing you,
The cruel time never changes its pace,
But you know that I know,
We have to go our separate ways,
With love for each other, to someone else’ embrace,
I wish, this moment just stops and forgets to pass by,
Coz I can’t see you going away,
You are my hardest goodbye…
-N2S
21122015

Wait, Wait and Wait

a person standing and waiting
Nobody told me that love is all about the wait,
endless and endless wait,
It’s about looking at your mobile for thousand times,
to see that one message,
but that message never comes,
It’s about lonely nights,
when you have so much to say,
but there is no one to listen,
It’s about getting soaked in rain,
and wishing somebody would worry,
but nobody won’t,
You look out there,
for someone to knock on your heart’s door,
and you just wait, wait and wait…
-N2S
16072016

I Just Need You

woman looking at phone in front of window
I get angry when I see you spending time with others,
Come on! That was my time,
I know you have friends, family and work,
But I want to be on your mind,
I know I am possessive but I am not ashamed of it,
I want you only for me, don’t care what others think about it,
I have a habit of being extremely choosy, so I pick you,
Call me whiny or needy but I just need you,

I won’t say I am perfect, actually I am far from it,
I have a weakness to get attached badly, I can’t help it,
Please don’t get mad or irritated, I am just made this way,
I do what I feel is right, and speak what my heart say,
Sometimes I talk on and on, so that you don’t hang the phone,
Sometimes I go silent, fighting my fears on my own,
I don’t worry about many things, I only fear of losing you,
for every other problem, I know how to get through,

So stay with me as much as you can,
I don’t mind if you talk to me 24 X 7,
I know I am talking rubbish, you are a busy person,
Your mind has million things going on,
You have many important people to meet;
Big goals to complete and exotic places to be,
Here I am, my heart knows only one thing to do,
My world starts with you…and it ends with you…
-N2S
29072016

A Boy Waits For A Girl

a boy waits for someone

Yes it’s hopeless but it is true,
I am always like this, you are always you,
I need surprises;
The best ones expect you,

You never seem to understand,
There is a child inside me
who wants to play with you,
Call me imbecile, different or crazy,
I always peek out of window,
Hoping for some miracle, shooting star or rainbow,

For the first time, if I am not looking outside,
The reason could be you,
Yes I am complaining, but I want my miracle to be you,
To behold all that amazement,
Let my astonishment be just you,
But you won’t understand,
You always were the ocean,
I feel like a desert now and then,

Why don’t you feel?
The need, the thirst,
The thirst in me,
You seem perfect for me and I always wanted to be with you,
And the connection between us, it always have been true,
Sometimes I wonder,
Am I wrong? Do I ask too much?
Do I love too much?
But what is enough,
What should be enough?

Is it my fault that I yearn, I seek all of you?
I don’t want you in pieces,
I want everything of you,
But only a prisoner can feel it,
The captivator won’t know any of it,
Far away, some place, a boy always waits for a girl to play with him…
-N2S
14102016

I Don’t Smoke

Man in tuxedo waiting near car

I don’t smoke coz I like it,
No, it is not for style, neither I get high on it,
I smoke coz I don’t want to outlive you,
There is no way, I will spend one more moment here without you,
I can’t imagine my life without you in it,
If that isn’t hell, then what is?
So I take a drag now and then,
To perish early and check if there is actually any heaven,
If there would be an afterlife, which I think there might be,
I would wait for you there, I have a habit of waiting,
I would be standing in front of my car wearing a black tuxedo,
A red rose and my crazy heart for the only girl I belong to…
-N2S
18052016