Hardest Goodbye

Lonely girl sitting alone
One day, you will understand,
Would realize why I did what I did,
Sometimes we meet the right people at the wrong times in our life;
Perfect ones that we only later realize,
If I get to choose, I would never want to lose you,
My heart breaks, when I look at you,
No matter how much I care or
how much I want to keep you safe,
I keep losing you,
The cruel time never changes its pace,
But you know that I know,
We have to go our separate ways,
With love for each other, to someone else’ embrace,
I wish, this moment just stops and forgets to pass by,
Coz I can’t see you going away,
You are my hardest goodbye…
-N2S
21122015

Take Care

girl cartoon with balloon

There was a day, when you owned me,
My body, my soul, my everything,
And yes you did made me happy,
with those cute little things,
We shared those intimate moments,
When there were just you and me,
We planned our future, so foolishly,
It was not your fault, neither mine,
as we are mere toys in the hands of time,
Today, as I hesitate to even call you,
I slowly see you becoming a stranger, as once were you,
One day…
Before I won’t exist…I won’t exist for you…
Whatever take care little girl, will you..?
-N2S
26052016

रात की ख़ामोशी (Raat Ki Khamoshi)

खुशियों के तोल-मोल से दूर कहीं भुला बिसरा पड़ा है सपनों का झोला,
बालों की सफेदी अब फर्क नहीं करती,
उम्र के पकने से पहले ही दे जाती हैं जिम्मेदारियों की रसीद,
हांसिल क्या किया है समझ नहीं आता,
और कामयाबियों की फेहरिश्त इतनी लम्बी भी नहीं,

मोबाइल की डायरेक्टरी में गिनती तो बढ़ती रहती है नामों की हर रोज़,
पर उनमें करीबी शायद अब एक-दो ही,
समय अब कभी काफी नहीं होता,
ज़रुरत पूरी हो जाती है, पर जरूरतें कम होती नहीं,

टूटे सामान अब जोड़े जाते नहीं, बदल दिए जाते हैं,
जो रिश्ते थोड़े मुश्किल होने लगे, तोड़ दिए जाते हैं,
लोग वही रहते हैं, उनके स्टेटस बदल जाते हैं,
अनजान जो दोस्त बने थे, धीरे-धीरे अनजान बन जाते हैं,



दिल में अब भी बहुत पड़े हैं आधे-अधूरे अरमान,
पर शायद अब सब धीरे-धीरे हाथ खड़े करने लगे हैं,
जीने लगे हैं किसी और के लिए,
पालने लगे हैं उसे बड़े जतन से,
आखिर कल उसपर ही तो लादना है ये सपनों का झोला,

चलो अब सो जाते हैं, रात से जो थोड़ी मोहल्लत मांगी है चंद लम्हों की,
बड़े अरसे बाद दिल की बाल्टी से कुछ बातें छलकी हैं,
रात की ख़ामोशी का शोर शायद सबसे ज्यादा होता है,
की बातें खुद तक पहुँच जाती हैं…
-N2S
10032019Man looking at lights in night

Thank You For Breaking My Stupid Heart

Sad breakup poem for ex-girlfriend

lonely boy standing
“All I wanted was to love you, was that too much asking?”

I wish I could sing like my Rockstar friend,
So that I would sing in front of your house and
make you feel how much it hurts to be heartbroken,
but I can’t, all I am is a stupid writer,
who write stupid stuff and throw them here and there,
Till now I was wondering why I was not feeling anything,
any promise of togetherness, I wasn’t believing,
A machine, perhaps I was turning into one,
but then I met you and it was quite fun,
you made me crazy, made me do things that I would have never done,
perhaps there was a part of me who knew, there was no hope from the start,
So girl, did you enjoy breaking my stupid heart?

You are funny, but didn’t know you would make fun of me too,
You were lost in love, I didn’t know you will make me one too,
How stupid I was to think, that I would get something I want,
my luck will let me have someone, I really want,
Now I want to run to someplace quiet,
But what to do with the storm churning inside?
the loneliness of my room isn’t helping me anymore,
no friends could help me, all they could do would cause pain more,
perhaps two packs of cigarettes, a carton of beer would do some temporary healing,
All I wanted was to love you, was that too much asking?



You want us to be just friends,
if that so, tell me my favorite things or my favorite events,
It is clear that you never cared for me,
Friends fight, we never fought as I was always afraid of losing,
Friends don’t hurt, they know it will make living hard,
Look at me, you just made a million pieces of my heart,
You say you are bad, no baby you are not bad,
you are plainly cruel, but you are not even aware of that,
I know this because I waited up all night just to hear that one word from you,
Funny thing is I want to hate you,
but there is too much love for you inside, that is tearing me apart,
So baby, how it feels breaking my stupid heart?

I would survive this, I have gone through this before,
This is a very terrible feeling, but I have been here before,
I know how to smile even when I am wounded from the inside,
I know how to hide the pain, I have been doing this for a while,
but all I ask you is when you meet someone who really loves you,
don’t give him false hope, don’t say words that you don’t mean to,
Because you would never realize how much it hurts,
how terrible it feels when your only dream breaks,
and the worst part is that I can not hate you even if I go too far,
So dear, thank you for breaking my stupid heart…

-N2S
11062015

Read more sad heartbreaking poems:
The Girl I Almost Had
Old Rose

Residents of Two Different Worlds

a boy looking at sky
“When I look to the stars…
I feel you are looking at them just like me…”

We are residents of two different worlds,
living on earth and sky,
but when I look at the stars,
I get this feeling I don’t know why?
I feel you are looking at them just like me,

I still wonder what I like about you?
your face, your eyes, your smile
or just looking at you,
You may have never seen me,
You don’t even know if I exist,
but it’s okay I am not one of your stalkers,
I have too much dignity to do it,



I just look at you on screen and feel happy that you are doing well,
Unlike me, you have wisened quite well,
In crossroads of life, I may choose someone resembling you,
and complying with my duties, perhaps I may even forget you,
Afterall it is never a promise,

You were never mine, to begin with,
The world is a strange place,
maybe I would find you someday asking for directions,
Or perhaps you may end up sitting beside me,
Looking me with curious attraction,
Well, these are just dreams but I have heard dreams do come true,
So maybe someday…I will meet you…

-N2S
23052015