Just Come Back To Me

silhouette photo of man leaning on heart shaped tree

You say things that are mean,
I say things that I don’t mean,
Then I let you go,
Sometimes I want you to,
but when you are not around,
I start missing you,

I feel empty inside,
The loneliness, it burns too,
Chocolate doesn’t taste the same,
All those romantic songs now hurt without you,
I try to sleep, but every dream is about you,
I try to smoke, but even that couldn’t fade you,

It’s Saturday night and raining outside,
My neighbors, they are already inquiring about you,
So wherever you are, whatever you are doing,
Just come back coz I really need you,

I am young, you are cute,
my heart is in mess,
I need to see you,
It’s the daily habit to have you around,
My smile goes missing without you,
I am not good with people,
I ain’t that good with solitude,
People have friends,
I got only you,

So wherever you are,
whatever you are doing,
Just come back to me,
coz I really need you…

-N2S
12092015

You Belong To Me

couple in love
“You know how I feel when I am around you,
But you still don’t know how much it hurts when I am not around you”

I don’t want to appear heartbroken,
Please don’t feel sad, perhaps you are mistaken,
It’s just I miss you so much that it hurts a lot,
Life sucks without you and you aren’t even aware of that,

I miss our late night talks on the phone;
And the countless, dumb things we said just not to stop conversing,
The eyes would get sleepy but the fingers wouldn’t stop typing,
You are the last thing on my mind before sleep,
And you are the first person I want to hear in the morning,
I miss how even a minuscule “Hi” from you would make me smile,
The food tastes good and the euphoria stays for a while,
I re-read our conversations when you are not around,
Checking if I have said something weird or unsound,

I still remember, how terrified I was when I said I really like you,
I was afraid that perhaps I would lose you,
But I had to say it as I couldn’t take all that in me,
I thought my heart would burst and you would never know what killed me,
Now you know how I feel when I am around you,
But you still don’t know how much it hurts when I am not around you,
I wish you feel the pain which I am going through,
But I ain’t cruel like you,

I hate myself for not being able to hate you,
You are such a good liar but why I still love you?
I repeat I don’t want to sound heartbroken,
Please don’t feel sad, you are not the reason,
I am lying, these words mean nothing,
If you find tears in my eyes, I assure you I ain’t crying,
Don’t touch me, don’t say anything,
You would make it worse, you would do the killing,

Perhaps I am really terrible at lying,
I miss you plenty, I couldn’t do more denying,
If these words mean anything to you or
if you feel even an infinitely small fraction of what I feel about you,
Just come right away and hug me tightly,
And whisper in my ear,”You belong to me…”

-N2S
28052015

[Photo by Travis Grossen on Unsplash]


Old Rose

Red Rose
“There would be a rose lying over my grave,
Take it, keep it close to your heart…”

There is an old rose in my book,
It reminds me of you,
There is an old high school picture of us,
It reminds me the time I was with you,
How cute were you then,
And still the best for me,
If there would be any chance to go back,
I want you there for me,

Sorry for words I never said,
I never knew you were thinking of me,
Only when I realized,
You were leaving me,
Now after so many years have passed,
A lot of things have happened in our lives,
Sometimes I wonder if you still remember me,
It’s long since you have crossed my eyes,
Don’t ever forget about me,
As I can never forget you in this life,
I was never bad at heart,
I just never knew what to do with my life,
Now I have lost you to someone else,
And you seem happy with lot of smiles,
Sometimes I still see the pain in your eyes,
I wish you could still believe me,
Even if you are tired of my lies,

I am doing good and would be fine,
You don’t worry about me, it’s just the matter of time,
Long after this,
Someday if I would ever pass by your house,
And you would be standing on the porch with your kids,
Would your heart flutter when I would smile?
You don’t have to say anything that time,
Just stand there for a while,
One day when I will die,
Would you remember me, would you cry?
There would be a rose lying over my grave,
Take it, keep it close to your heart,
When I would be long gone,
Would you remember me or at least remember my name…

-N2S

[Photo by Ivan Jevtic on Unsplash]